Wow, so this is what being a Dad is like...

I apologize for not updating the last eleven days, but I have been a little busy (see photo on the post below). Baby T is home, Mom and baby are healthy, big sister B is in total love with him and I am exuberant, ecstatic, overjoyed, scared, tired, worried and immensely proud, all at the same time.

I am the luckiest guy in the world, to have what I have. A loving, caring, thoughtful wife who is totally, one hundred percent devoted to her daughter and newborn son. A stepdaughter who is quite possibly the sweetest, smartest, cutest, kindest child in the world. A newborn son who already sleeps like I do and who does look like me, but only in good ways. It seems he gets most of his looks from his Mother, and trust me, that's a good thing.

I don't know if I will ever feel the way I did when I first held him. Parents, you know what I mean. Those of you without kids, well, I couldn't possibly describe it. Shakespeare couldn't, either. Just trust me, when he looked at me with those eyes for the first time, I mean really looked at me and locked onto my face, I was lost. It's a humble thing to realize that you would do absolutely anything for this mewling, wriggling thing you are holding that you have only seen for two minutes.

I realize I am playing cqatch up in a sense. Jen has bonded with him for nine months before I saw him. He recognized my voice and 'knew' me but not on the level of his mother. I'm not resentful of that fact, that's just the way it is. But the first time I held him as he cried and quickly soothed him to sleep was a mystifying, magical, unimaginably cool moment.

I had said many times in my posts before he was born how I couldn't wait til he was here. I didn't know. I had no idea.

  ¶ 3:05 PM